“Lost”
I gaze around
the newsroom with my sad eyes. It’s the same as ever. Anxious people run around
in a room illuminated by LCD screens and the glister of the glass doors. And in
the centre of this history-producing room, I lifelessly stand. I am entirely
numb and unresponsive to all the chaos; instead, I am immersed in my own
desperate thoughts. Love has never been my forte. But I thought that maybe,
just maybe, it could work out with her. It hurts to know how wrong I was. An
emotional investment is rarely profitable; all you ever get in return is a
fruit basket of tears, disappointments, heartbreak, and to top it all off,
acute depression. I cannot carry on with my days knowing that she’s living
freely and happily whilst I try and cope with the sharp blades of glass
constantly piercing my mind. Thus, I make my first movements of the day. I
spread my arms at shoulder high with struggle, but close my eyes and tilt my
head back with ease. I lean back on my heels and just let myself go. This time,
however, I hope there is no one at the end of my “trust” fall.